So right now you’re pissed at me. And I’m so sorry. I was just trying to be thoughtful, but I tend to fuck up the simplest of things…it was clear what you wanted and I disrespected that. I can’t begin to tell you how important you are to me, not that you want to hear that right now anyway. I just love you so much, and when you’re this angry at me I get beyond scared. I don’t know how to handle it, I just wish I could come talk to you face to face. I wish we could talk in person tomorrow even. I didn’t mean to do any wrong by you tonight. It was just something I thought would be nice that went way wrong. Just know that I love you and I won’t stop fighting for you, you’re my best friend ever. Good luck on your test tomorrow. Maybe by then I’ll be done crying. And my head will be out of my ass and for once I might actually be able to do something right by you.

When I was younger…….. I’d put my arms in my shirt and told people I lost my arms. Would restart the video game whenever I knew I was going to lose. Slept with all the stuffed animals as a child so none of them got offended..Had that one pen with 4 colors, and tried to push all the buttons at once. Poured soda into the cap and acting like I were taking shots. The hardest decision was choosing which Nintendo game to play. Waited behind a door to scare someone, then leaving because they’re taking too long to come out or you had to pee. Faked being asleep, so I could be carried to bed. Used to think that the moon followed my car. Watching two drops of rain roll down window and pretending it was a race. Went on the computer just to use Paint. The only thing i had to take care of was a Tamagotchi. The only ‘fake’ friends i had were invisible ones . I used to sing in the shower. (Now? I make life decisions in there now). Swallowed a fruit seed I was scared to death that a tree was going to grow in my tummy. Getting a bruised knees heals better than a broken heart. Remember when we were kids and couldn’t wait to grow up…what the hell were we thinking?